Monday, December 27, 2010

Two Word Tuesday

© 2010 Cizon Sauceda
During 2010:

grievous: causing grief or great sorrow; burdensome or oppressive
tribulation: severe trial or suffering; an affliction, trouble

for 2011:

quiet: calm, peaceful
contentment: comfort, happiness

As 2010 comes to an end determined that the last two word Tuesday of the year would be a summation in two words of the year. With some thought I believe that grievous tribulation is well suited for the year. This is what occurs when you willy-nilly through the year without much planning and prayer. The end results in a pained heart that can go no other place but to the Lord in prayer and seek a way that leads back to peace, comfort and security.

As for 2011 I am seeking quiet contentment. I desire to peacefully seek God, daily read His word faithfully and fully lean on his understanding and wisdom and not my own. I pray for love, joy, happiness, peace, contentment, wisdom, righteousness=right living in God. I want to grow closer to Christ so I can see who I am to be in Him and not be looking in the window wondering "who am I" and "what I am supposed to be doing". I want to seek Him because He is seeking me. It's time to quit running away and start living today the life I gave him so many years ago. In living this new year and drawing closer to God I hope to be closer to my spouse, children, family and to know what paths He holds for me.

What two words sum up your 2010 and bring purpose to 2011 for you?

Friday, November 5, 2010

What's In A Name?

© 2010 Cizon Sauceda

Who am I that I am called child of God? Who am I that I am, Cizon, loved by God so much that He sent His only begotten son that I should have eternal life? To have my name in the Lamb’s Book of Life is beholden of who I am. I am the child of the Great I Am. A follower of Jesus Christ, who by His shed blood and my repentance, has enabled me to be forever redeemed.

Once upon a time in the city of Clovis, NM there was a family name that when spoken everyone knew who was being referred to: Lovett. There was Troy Lovett and his brother Roy the farmers or Dink Lovett of Lovett Boat and Motor. Troy Lovett, a community leader, who was active in Farm Bureau, Production Credit and owner of land in the Pleasant Hill region. He was a fine farmer and owner of T. L. Farms. Once upon a time, there was Mr. Troy Lovett the Baptist, the Deacon, the Lay Witness Leader and his precious wife Nell. It is odd how a family name can quietly appear and then disappear into the annals of history. The Lovett’s are for the most part gone from Clovis. To think that between 25 - 80 years ago this prominent, faithful, God-fearing family was widely known in Curry County, New Mexico and West Texas but today is just a memory in the minds of those who knew and loved them best.

What is in a name? God gave his son, Jesus. Jesus is the anointed one, Christ. He is to the Jewish people a Prophet and to the saved the Son of God. He is the Lord, a teacher to those who follow. He is also the son of man, the Messiah, the Prince of Peace, the King of the Jews, the King of Kings and the Lamb of God. The Lamb of God, slain, in order that believers will have salvation and have their names written in the Lamb’s Book of Life. My God is Jehovah-jireh, my provider. Jehovah Nissi, my banner. Jehovah Rohi, my shepherd. Jehovah Rapha, my healer. Jehovah Shalom, the Lord is peace. Jehovah Tsidkenu, the Lord our righteousness.

The Great I Am knows and loves you best. Because he loves, you come unto him and know you belong in him. Only through God will the voids that dwell upon your soul be filled. Trust in God and lean not on your own understanding because as you leave your footprint in time it too will disappear and you will be a memory in the minds of loved ones but most importantly, you will forever be called a child of God. To be called a child of God with eternal salvation is the greatest name that one can be called. In the end we are but dust blown away and what is left is eternal. Are you called Child of God?


Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Renewal of the Temple of the Holy Spirit

© 2010 Cizon Sauceda 

Renewal.  Renewal is the act of renewing or state of being renewed or instance of this.  Renew.  Renew is to begin or do again or to make like new (and/or replenish).

Cizon needs a renewal, a refreshing moment to move forward and put the old behind her and new before her. 

I am reminded by 1 Corinthians 3:16 that I am God's temple {From the NIV:  Don't you know that you yourselves are God's temple and that God's Spirit lives in you?}. 

After spending time in the hospital for high blood pressure and chest pain just two weeks ago and realizing that being around for my family is important to me I must return to a heart healthy lifestyle.  It is important that I renew the journey previously traveled in 2007 of which I derailed grossly and have, unfortunately, severely back trodden.  Not only did I lose 67 pounds and then regain 76 pounds but have endangered my heart and my life in the process.  High blood pressure, continuous stress, eating from stress, cholesterol, border-line (really is there such a thing) diabetes are all the results of not taking care of this temple that my God, my Holy Spirit indwells.  So forthwith I will begin the heart healthy way of living that will produce the energy for the activity that will result in the spiritual closeness to Christ that I crave, reduce the stress that surrounds me, prepare my body to be physically fit and reduce the cumbersome weight that holds me back from living the life God fully intends to be lived.

Journaling greatly assisted in this journey in 2007 when I lost the pounds so I will once again fill blog notes as I renew this journey and move forward.  South Beach Diet was the program from which I gained great strides so I will revisit that but most importantly I will begin tracking caloric intake versus output so to wisely meet the deposits and withdrawals my body will be making in a heart healthy fashion.

I had an acrostic that I will once again follow:
Nutrition (being the heart healthy, Mediterranean to South Beach fare)
Exercise (starting out with 3 - 5 and moving to 5 - 7 visits to the gym)
Water (proper hydration is important for healthy living that includes weight loss)
Sleep (6 - 8 hours a night - middle of the night as I post so not yet up to speed)

I've always thought how it would be to live to 122 should the Lord tarry.  At the rate I have been living that will not be a possibility but upon renewal anything is possible!  Renewal begins with the Good News.  If God is for me and my health and if it is for His Temple I seek to renew so that I am fit and strong to fulfill the purposes he has set forth for my life than I must without faltering begin the renewal process.  I do this for my God, my health and my family because I love God, I love myself and because of these I love my family.

As I C It, I will succeed and be healthy. It is time to renew.

Monday, February 22, 2010

Memories, Snow & A Funeral

As I C It, I have a view of a beautiful, snowy mountainside on the outskirts of Gallup, NM alongside I-40. Mind you, mother, daddy and I were coming from a stay in Eastern New Mexico and heading back to Arizona & Nevada from our visit for the funeral of a family friend. We finally arrived into Gallup sometime between 1:30 a.m. and 2:00 a.m. Today is Monday, February 22, 2010.

In a rush Sunday evening after reading the weather advisory in effect until Tuesday and not wanting to be snowed in at the farm with limited supplies we left Pleasant Hill, NM and begun our journey west. By the time we reached Albuquerque I was in doubt that a winter wonderland was on its way. I peered frequently at the weather channel on my Blackberry and it would never waiver in the fact that by 10:00 p.m. there would be snow (in every city that we had already passed and were heading to) however no snow did I spy. After a quick stop in Albuquerque for gas and break, we headed on down the road toward our stopping point for this leg of our journey - Gallup.

I slumbered some after leaving Albuquerque and was jolted awake by Daddy as he was maneuvering through the wet, slick snowy roadway that had become a one-lane street rather than a freeway. Truckers were everywhere as well as a few others who wanted to live dangerously and flew by in the left 'fast' lane that was quickly becoming a white blanket. I had just missed the overturned double tractor-trailer, which I assume is the conversation that mother and daddy were having when I was startled awake. Thirty miles took forever to track and the snow appeared to be a white out blizzard at times. I must tell that I do not enjoy driving in the snow because of the accident I had during the winter of 1988 so I was quite happy it was daddy at the wheel of the car rather than me.

I will digress momentarily to tell you that back in 1988 when traveling down the highway in Amarillo between the airport and town, I had the unfortunate opportunity to have an 18-wheeler zoom past me, startle me and in a split second, without thought, I tapped the brakes on the car. Not the best decision in my then 20 some odd years of life because the winter wonderland upon which I was driving was really a black icy roadway. The 20-year-old mother in me had a lifetime of memories flashing through my mind and the worry for my 13-month-old son who was sitting in the rear seat. You see the child seat he was in was one that set up high so he could see the world about him and in an instant my thought was oh dear Lord please don’t let the trailer decapitate my son. By the grace of God, I was driving a car with a front end that was short enough that it only tapped-off the mid-set of tires on the tractor’s trailer. I bounced off the tires and then proceeded to spin 180 degrees ending up on the shoulder heading in the opposite direction of traffic but not in the lane of traffic. God is good. He spared my life, my son’s life and my friend’s life. Had the front end of the car been of any other length I know that we would have gone under the trailer and spun out of control from the force of the trucker’s wheels and not live to praise God for his grace and mercy.

Well we made it past this blizzard of white beauty and I now sit in my hotel room. I love the view that I have and the snow that is either blowing or falling from the sky. Mom called my room this morning to say we ‘d stay another night instead of trying to make it on down the road. With the gym, Internet, a book, several newspapers and magazines I am set for the day to keep myself busy.

On another note, I want to say that Don Teague’s funeral was uplifting. Pleasant Hill Baptist Church overflowed with friends, loved ones and community residents who all had one thing in common…their love of Don and his faithfulness and friendship. I will miss Don. He and his wife Dona were instrumental in assisting my parents and grandparents with the teaching of life, values and of my blessed Redeemer and Saviour during the period of time we call middle school. They let me begin to tag along with the youth group (they were the youth leaders at the time for PHBC) every time I was out at Meemaw and Papa’s. This was about the time I began 6th grade and until we moved to Roswell. I am so thankful that I had the opportunity to know the Teague family. I have stored up indelible treasures in the memory bank of my life of activities and trips and camping that will forever be a part of me. I must thank you Don and Dona for a rich legacy that you have left for many generations to carry forward to future generations. Each of the Teague sons spoke at the funeral. Lance was just down to earth and to paraphrase him as being just an ole’ plow-boy as he spoke favorably of how his father sought to encourage his sons in their passions and dreams yet keep them grounded in the Word and the Lord. Mark had three points to his father’s life but its rich root again was to stay grounded in the Word and that the Word is the way to live and pursue life. I did not know Mark was such a great public speaker…he almost appeared pastoral in his “sermon”. Mike…you are witty and talented. I love your piano skills. They inspire me to learn to play the piano, to have the piano tuned and pick up lessons and continue from what I do know. I am thankful you were able to play for your father and your duet with the violinist was a pure joy. This funeral was to me joyous. To me, and I do not say this with any disrespect but with great admiration, this was a Sending Off To Heaven party for one of God’s faithful servants.

Saturday afternoon we went back out to the farm and then over to visit with the Holdeman's. I love that family. They are such gentle people and so thoughtful and kind. On Saturday night we had the great privilege of visiting Dona, each of her boys, their wives and other family members as well as a former pastor of PHBC. We enjoyed dinner with them and had a great time visiting and regaling of the past. It was quite joyous. Sunday my brother Charles, his wife Julie and my nieces Tessa and Emilee came to the farm. My aunt Nessie and Uncle Larry came down as well and all of us went into Clovis to Leal’s for lunch. It was a great time of family. I have enjoyed every bit of my time in New Mexico. I miss my home state.

I am excited that I was able to take time to walk around the land surrounding the house and the barn and the old buildings around the farm. I will post pictures of the farm, what I call “home”, when I get back to Las Vegas and can download them from my camera. Today I will share the pretty yet snowy view taken with my Blackberry from my hotel window in Gallup, NM. Until we meet again…may God bless and keep you.

Monday, February 15, 2010

President's Day 2010

As I C It - Today is Monday, 2/15/2010 and I'm not feeling at par today. I am supposed to meet a friend in a few hours at the local scrapbook store but I have had a headache now for two days and I have ringing in my ears. My blood pressure is elevated and in general I just feel "icky". I believe I will be staying home instead of joining in at the crop. This darn headache kept me from meeting up with friends for coffee yesterday too. If it does not go away by tomorrow I will need to call the doctor.

President's day! Wow...another year has passed. 21 years ago on President's Day my sweetie asked me to marry him. Maybe I should cook a special dinner tonight or clean the "boxes" out of the living room that have needed unpacking since we moved into the apartment 4.5 years ago. I should do something special for the historic date. Hard to believe it has now been 21 years that we have been together.

A dear family friend was in a horrible auto accident this past Saturday that took his life. If mother and daddy drive home to NM for the funeral I will go with them. The family has been on my mind and in my heart since learning of this tragedy on Saturday. My prayers are heaven bound for all of the family - we do not understand how God could take a man like Don but I tell you this that there is a purpose and God will be glorified in some way - in my prayers I feel that there is someone God plans to speak to, impress upon and bring back home through this tragedy. Don was a Godly man and I hurt for his family but rejoice as I do know that we will all see him again one day in Glory.

I need to make a few sympathy cards, finish some birthday cards and make a few anniversary and thank you cards this week. I also need to clear, clean and organize my crafting area upstairs. I'd like to set up the sewing machine as well and then make a list of all the sewing/quilting supplies I need to begin learning to sew and hand quilt.

I think I'll go lay down for a couple of hours and see how I feel as to whether I call off on the crop day and stay home and rest again or feel well enough to go out.