Friday, January 14, 2011

Cain and Abel - First Fruits

© 2011 Cizon Sauceda

I am reading through the King James Version of the Bible this year.  I've spent today pondering Genesis four and I've been wrapping my head around the following verses:

3And in process of time it came to pass, that Cain brought of the fruit of the ground an offering unto the LORD. 4And Abel, he also brought of the firstlings of his flock and of the fat thereof. And the LORD had respect unto Abel and to his offering:  5But unto Cain and to his offering he had not respect...

My first inclination was "whoa Nelly", why God did you not respect both offerings? I compared passages from various Bible versions and it did not really detail the why but upon looking more closely into verse 3 the difference is in the missing word: "Firstlings". First. First Fruit. First Portion. However it is stated it all sums up to the fact that Abel brought God his best and Cain just brought.

Upon reading I think of the area's in our lives where we need to provide God our best.  Our time.  Our talent.  Our tithe.  I leap to think and question, how Lord do I obediently earn your respect?  One of the definitions of respect is the condition of being esteemed or honored: to be held in respect.  Another definition is favor or partiality.  I am God's child and I want to be highly favored.  I want to earn his respect too.  I want to be an obedient follower of Christ.  Going back to the thought of do I give God enough of my time so that he has the first portion of the day I ask myself:  Do I spend enough time gleaning from the Word so that I can pick apart the scripture to seek him face to face and do I allow him the time to teach me?  Am I taking time daily to talk to my best friend and invite him into all the rooms of my heart 1?

I will continue to ponder as I discover more of how to give God the first portion.  This journey through the KJV will bring many pauses as I seek to know God more fully, serve him more diligently as I give him the first fruits of my time, money and talent. Only in this manner will I truly become the woman God created, the woman he respects and the woman he designed to be servant, wife, mother, grandmother, daughter, niece, sister, aunt, cousin and friend.

 1My Heart - Christ's Home

Thursday, January 13, 2011

2011.01.13 - Daily

© 2011 Cizon Sauceda

11:03 a.m.
Today I am in pain and my back is really not cooperating at all.  I've been in pain for a few days now.  I over medicated night before last (took pain med and muscle relax early evening and then again at 1am when pain persisted) and then slept nearly 24 hours and now I've been up for 15 hours.  I need to get my days and nights in order again.  I took my naproxen just a bit ago because I cannot stand the pain any longer.  I haven't been to the RA doctor since the insurance ended in October.  I haven't had regular RA treatment in that amount of time either.  I'm not sure when it will be affordable again so I must begin to eat healthy and commit to regular exercise.  Calories in must be less than calories out.  Today is bust because of soda and food I've eaten overnight so as of this moment I will begin to be more attentive to calories in and will try to get to the gym one more time this week.  I lifted 2 pound weights for strength on Sunday at home using the same routines that brought results in 2007 and then I went to the gym on Monday where I walked the treadmill for 21 minutes plus rode the bike for another 10 minutes.  This is quite possibly why I am in so much pain (which was much worse Tuesday night but still painful today).  I believe I will aim for the pool on the next visit to the gym to stretch in the water and walk the pool with a follow-up to the hot tub to relax for a bit.  I hope to do this either today, tomorrow or Saturday.

Goal is to get to gym 2x this week (one down), 3x next week, and eventually by adding one day a week be at the gym 5x - 6x each week.  Caloric goal is 1200 - 1500 calories a day - amount depending on if I hit the gym.  I can and will do this.  If God is for me why should I be against me?  Time to really take care of this temple of his.

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Not So Random Thoughts

© 2011 Cizon Sauceda

Praise God for a brand new week!  I am excited to embark on this new venue of life.  As Chris and I talked/texted Saturday late in the evening he is just as excited as I am about my Mary Kay business.  He was speaking to me of a vision he was seeing of a storm gathering on the horizon and that he saw a cloud the size of a fist in the air and inside the cloud is the shower of blessings God has in store for my Mary Kay business.  Now can a husband be any more supportive than to see visions from God for his graciousness toward my business?  I love God and I love Chris!

I love these conversations I have with my husband.   He loves to expound the greatness stored in God's word to me when I bring up a scripture or a subject.  Tonight I randomly texted to him a couple of sentences from a blog that I subscribe to ~ - Mark BattersonI was catching up on a couple of his blogs and texted/quoted the following to Chris from the blog I was reading:  "But there is a God in heaven who reveals secrets.  You never know when the God of heaven might invade the reality of your life and change everything."

Now mind you I haven't seen Chris since December and only for a brief couple of hours for dinner in Kingman with family and he hasn't been home since early November so my text to him was to encourage him (if not myself) not to give up hope that God has a plan to bring him home for good with a local job.  So in the midst of this over-the-road job we are struggling heavily financially down to the last pennies and then praying that food, rent & utilities, etc., are met even with the slight relief his pay affords to us.  But my dear heart, Chris, went on to text back that it was so true and that he had been thinking about Elijah and the widow and how the need was provided for her situation and that ours would be met as well.  Now isn't that faith!  I then told him that was such an awesome faith and blessing and that we needed an Elijah moment in our life.

I was contacted today by a dear sweet friend who was previously a team member of mine in a previous Mary Kay year.  We both became inactive but lo and behold if she doesn't contact me after seeing on FB (and receiving the same email I did from our NSD) that I was back in business and to ask about joining me again!  I can't wait to share my business with others, enrich their lives and build a team and so after our Elijah conversation I was telling Chris about her message to me.  Chris was excited and that is when he told me about the cloud he is seeing on the horizon.

So I have a dream.  I have a goal.  God showed me two years ago that he would open up the heavens as far as the stars could be seen and provide me with the team members to build the Sauceda Stars team similar to his promise to Abraham.  I believed but yet I did not and gave up before I could grow up in my business.  I am reclaiming the promise.  With the love and support of my husband and family and with mad determination I am, with God as my business partner, striving to take our business as far as He will allow. 

Praise God that I live in a country that gives me the opportunity to build a business and work for myself/God. 

It's not just the Cadillac SRX (Escalade someday dear Lord if willing) or the $$$ that it will afford to my family and I as we diligently roll up our sleeves and work for these goals but it is also the friends that will be family that I will make on this journey not only with team members and sister consultants but within my hostesses and customers as well!

So for this month forward, I will be seeking God and seeking faces/relationships.  I want to personally share the business with 50 team members to join me this year.   I will begin with customers, hostesses and parties to meet & greet those who will be my future team members as well as those who will prefer to be my customers.  We will grow together making new friends and learning the Mary Kay way of God first, Family second and Career third.  We will learn about skincare, color cosmetics and building relationships.  I can't wait with one step at time starting with my first facials and parties to becoming a director and even expanding to Mexico our business and future team and on to the National Area vision I had two years ago!

God is good and I believe he has great things in store for our family and our business.

I keep  hearing in my heart that with God ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE and not only that but according to Matthew 7:7-8 (niv) "Ask and it will be given to you, seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.  For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened".

I am asking, I am seeking, I am knocking....Lord I cry out please open the doors and allow me to meet the wonderfully made people you created to teach to enrich and to work with each day.

Wednesday, January 5, 2011


© 2011 Cizon Sauceda

Creative people enjoy the hues of green. These shades represents the growth within them much like the young wheat seed that blossoms into the field of green. The lovers of the color green desire to expand their horizons and constantly search for successes life will bestow upon them. The color green creates an energy and is complimented with hues of blue and yellow. These colors are highly visible in the mind of the lover of all things green. Its precious depth of color spreads life, much like that of the white daisy that gently sits upon the green stem with its twinkle of yellow against the sky of blue, with hope of a prosperous future.

New Beginning…Fresh Start… or the same old, same old?

© 2011 Cizon Sauceda

Promise, hope, direction, contentment, peace, joy, uncertainty, restlessness, sadness, bereavement, sorrow, kindness, sympathy…the gamut of emotions felt by many as the new year prevails across the universe and even in my own heart (and all as if on a rollercoaster).  We all enter the new year seeking a better fill in the blank with your new search.  To resolute or not, that ’tis the question and if so what resolution is worth keeping?  I resolved not to have any resolutions this year and then at the last minute decided I would give up Dr. Pepper for 2011!  Ok.  I know.  And…yes, I have already broken that resolution.  So now, I am back to zero resolutions.  I am back on the even keel, but this even keel is it where my precious Saviour chooses me to be?  I think not.  I believe he desires more from and for me as my new year unfolds.  He wants me to walk more closely to and with him.  I am seeking a new 2011 that draws nigh my Saviour.

In 2011, I will be an OVERCOMER.  What a better way to become content, find peace, and joy in the resounding turmoil I’ve come through the past decade.  I praise God he has brought me through and look toward the cross in faith as I overcome.  I am promised that because I, Cizon, believe that Jesus Christ is the Son of God I will overcome the world (see 1 John 5:5).  There is not anything in the world that with the Lord I cannot overcome. Satan may try to stomp on my family, my children and my health but by the grace of God, I am overcoming.  Get thee behind me Satan - YOU shall not prevail!  I will hold the hand of my precious Lord and be lead through 2011 with grace and peace that has never been felt by me.

I will be OBEDIENT in 2011:  Obedience.  It should come naturally but the child in me continues to wonder, to be discouraged, to seek and to wonder about more.  I even find it difficult to turn to my brothers and sisters in Christ when I am hurting because I don’t want to burden them....and then I slowly withdraw.  I don’t get anywhere in this wondering and withdrawl that I continue to do year after year and it is time to cling more closely to the Word, be obedient, and be involved in service.  Nevertheless, I will praise God and thank him for bringing me through the disobedient and discouraging times because of His loving kindness and GRACE I always find my way home.  Obedience begins with diving into the Word and the Lord willing I will read the entire Bible this year and grow.  As I seek him, the obedience will come to light and by being obedient the light of joy will prevail.  Joy is the by-product of an obedient heart.  There is an old hymn (Trust and Obey, John H. Sammis, 1857) that I love…

When we walk with the Lord in the light of His Word,
What a glory He sheds on our way!
While we do His good will, He abides with us still,
And with all who will trust and obey.

Trust and obey, for there’s no other way
To be happy in Jesus, but to trust and obey.

Trust and Obey.  I often turn to the hymns as they bring joy to my heart but in 2011 I will more frequently turn to his Word from whence I will find the light of my glorious heavenly Father who will teach me His definition of obedience and trust and happiness.